dance unashamed! Psalm 149:3

I have so many things I want to say, but don't exactly know where to begin.. I'm not the best writer and things tend to make better sense in my head than they do when I write them down or in this case type. It is now summer of 2010 and I have completed two years of college at Angelo State. Thus far, I am doing well and I am pretty sure I am where the Lord wants me to be. There are many things going on both in Angelo, at home in College Station, and other places.

Let's see, one of the first weeks of summer I got to experience something totally amazing and witness God's glory in the beautiful mountains of Buena Vista, Colorado. I myself along with Lindsay, Matthew, and Latham joined Trail West Young Life Camp in preparing for the upcoming summers families to visit and learn about Christ at what they call Work Week. Now before going one of my brothers told me how it literally is a WORK WEEK. Lots of hard work and entirely exhausting. I honestly did not know what all was going to happen while I was there, but I did know that I was so excited and couldn't wait to see what was in store. Now God exceeded my expectations. I got to work alongside my friends, meet some wonderful new friends, and of course experience God in a whole new setting. I could not have asked for anything more. While I could go on and talk about this experience for hours, I will leave it at the Lord truly shines above all things and I pray I can continue relationships/friendships with the people I met. All were so God loving and each special in their own way. It was definitely a week FULL OF CHRIST and I wouldn't have had it any other way!

After "camp" I stayed in San Angelo for another week or so and continued working at Outback cause I didn't see it fair to ask off for say 3 months at a time, plus I truly do enjoy working there. After that I got to come home and it was wonderful because I miss my family tremendously. Though I am going on my third year of college, I still can't seem to get past those feelings of being homesick. I know the Lord has great things in store for me and if I continue to live my life the way I am, I feel like I will accomplish what the Lord has planned.

Really quick, I got to go to Florida for a destination wedding for my cousin and it was beautiful. A ton of my family was there including MY entire family; sister, both brothers, parents, sister-in-law, and nieces. Just wanted to share that.

I have been in College Station and blessed with being able to work for Dr Knight up at A&M for a number of years now during the summers. I can't explain how much that man means to me. He is like another grandpa to me and I enjoy all the moments I get to spend with him.

I am fixing to leave back for Angelo so I can go back to work and get ready for everything there. I will be living in a new place yet again, things didn't end as well as I would have liked in the previous living arrangement. This will be the lucky number 4 residence since I have lived in Angelo. Praying the best!

Bittersweet, I am overwhelmed! I have wonderful times with my family, such as Father's day yesterday and then a movie date night tonight with my dad. I am so blessed with such a wonderful family. The times I get frustrated at anyone in my family lately have made me feel bad.. I take for granted so much by letting little things make my mood. I have so much more than many kids and do not have to go through half of what they do. I want to show more appreciation and love as God has called us to do.

I am reading a book called "The Divine Dance". It relates to me because it puts things into perspective for someone who dances. So far it is talking about how we try to please all audiences placed before us (ie. boys, friends). All in all, the DIVINE DANCE we are set to give is for our Lord alone! We don't need to try and impress others, because that's not who the dance was intended for. Just a little of what is on my mind about the book so far, but I don't think I can explain how I feel about this book that well in words.

"YOU ARE UNFULFILLED BECAUSE GOD DID NOT CREATE YOU TO DANCE FOR THIS WORLD. HE INTENDED FOR YOU TO DANCE FOR HIM. DANCING IS A FORM OF WORSHIP, AND HE WANTS YOU TO WORSHIP HIM!"

"YOU CANNOT DANCE FOR GOD WITH THE WORLD IN YOUR POCKET"

-Caitlin

20 years old and living with 3 great girls in San Angelo going to school full time and working.. Life is stressful and I miss home and my family dearly.

With a new friend lately I have realized that when we need to lean on the Lord the most is when we turn away. In times of hardship and struggle, that is when we should be leaning on God with all our strength but we don't. That is my prayer that I will recognize that and lean on the Lord.

Erin has been a great light on my life and appreciate her so much.

My sister asked me one time if I had any girl friends that could bring God into the situation if I was having a bad day etc. I used to not be able to say yes confidently, but now that's changed. I see the Lord working in more people than I can say and it's great.

I need not worry about boys that I like because honestly the Lord will take care of that for me in time. I need to trust in Him and take things a day at a time. Work on the relationships I have with family and friends. I am so blessed but always take things for granted. Friendships are work but all in all should be fun. I am praying that with a few friendships I have the Lord will shine his light and also that I won't worry about things as much. Just be the carefree fun loving person I know I can be. Just stinks when some people are so immature about some things. I can't really get all my thoughts out but that is the gist of things.

The fall semester is going by so fast. Thus far I seem to be doing well in my classes. I am so excited to come home and visit family and a handful of friends. I am so blessed by the Lord with all he has given me and I can't wait to see what else he has in store. Right now I plan on finishing this year at Angelo State but afterwards I am still not sure where I want to finish. I love my roommates and the friends I have here so that makes it harder for me to decide.

Live Laugh Love

Live each day as if it could be your last :)

Caitlin

so i love my friends i really do..

each one brings out different great qualities and i wouldn't have it any other way

sometimes i feel like i fail at everything though.. i'm only one person and i do care what others think but i wanna hang out with everyone and i cannot make everyone happy no matter how hard i try

things get brought up about the past that we are said to have forgotten and to move on but nope that never happens.. idk what to do but i just wanna live for my lord. i'm tired and i'm upset and i can't find the words i never have been able to

2 Timothy 3:16

All scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness.

Summer school is over and I managed to do well which is great. Now I'm just back to working for the wonderful Dr Knight in the RLEM/ESSM ANIN building at A&M and I couldn't be happier. I love that man, he's like another grandfather. Sweet, gentle, loving, kind, and caring on top of many other traits. Aside from that just picking up a few shifts at Outback Steakhouse to keep on top of my game for when I go back to San Angelo and hopefully work at that Outback again.

I miss Angelo and such but I am kind of curious to know what God wants me to do. I feel like it will be right for me to go back for another year or so but after that I guess we'll just have to see. I love my family and every day getting to spend time with them makes me happy. When I am alone I tend to think too much and I get upset and I don't like it. There is a boy I like but ultimately giving it to God because if it is right and is of the Lord then it will come in time. Just praying and lifting up everything to him.

My cousin gets married soon. She's going to look beautiful. Random side note I thought I'd add :)

Friend Amy Vines decided to move to Hawaii so I get her dog Emma whom has been great thus far. She's adorable and I am glad to be able to take care of her. She sleeps in my bed and makes me smile every time I see her so that's good.

I don't know what I am feeling right now. Debating whether I want to go to San Angelo this weekend.. weird?

I am so thankful for everything God has given me and just love to pray to him.

Rough patches, tears, roller coaster rides plus many more things could describe my relationship with one of my friends. Ultimately I hate drama but this girl is awesome. She makes me smile and just little things we do together I couldn't see myself doing with anyone else. I pray to be a better friend with each day. I am so thankful for the relationship we share and thank Jesus though I know I take many things for granted.

Thomas Calvin Wolz - You passed away on the 27th of June and I miss you boy. You were one attractive fellow. Glad I got to date ya :) Keep an eye out on all of us down here. My heart sings to know you are with Jesus. His home is so much better than this place I call home right now. Love you very much! Your family is staying strong. They will always miss you and Whitney is an amazing girl. Glad to know ya'll!

Winston- It's been awhile but I think about you often. Glad I get to talk to your mom occasionally. You are beautiful and I can't wait to see you again. Love you sweet girl. :) Watch over us!

caitlin

Galations 1:10

Am I now trying to win the approval of man or of God? Or am I still trying to win the approval of man. If i were still trying to win the approval of man I would not be a servant of the Lord Jesus Christ!

I honestly recite this verse every day at least twice!

This is my favorite bible verse and for many reasons. 

Constantly from day to day this verse brings many questions to mind. Why I was put here on this earth? What reason do I have for being here? With each passing day I ponder what my purpose is for being alive.

Ultimately, I was put here on this earth to serve Christ my Lord. It thrills me to know that one day I will be standing in his presence and I will be before my Saviour living with him for eternity. 

Why this verse? This verse poses a question in my head that I never stop thinking about. 

• Am I trying to impress others?
• Am I being myself around the people I am surrounding myself with?
• Do I live my life according to His word?
• Do I think before I speak and take action?
• Why do I do the things I do and say the things I say?

These are just a few questions that go through my little head when pondering about this verse. 

Through reciting this verse, it makes me think before I speak and think about my actions. I need to be myself and live for the Lord not live to get the satisfaction of others. If I am looking for satisfaction in people, no wonder I have failed.. I have to look at the lord and be a servant for him. :)

also.. many things have been on my mind lately and being able to talk to a firm believer in Christ helps so much. Shows that God provides everything we need.. Here's a little of what my friend said to me and I thought it was great!

there will always be things that come up that you'll be concerned about.. but, our God can handle anything you let Him.. you have to let Him first though, and trust in His plan.. i will def lift that up for you.. and also that He will lead others into your life that will not only help keep you accountable, but you can help each other grow closer to God together..

caitlin